Thursday, December 9, 2010

Considering Hypnosis (warning: Do not read this unless you wanna listen to me whine.)

I've got the blues.  I just wanna go back to bed and wake up somebody else right now.  I've had a few unexpected surprises in the last few days and now I'm just drained.  I'm overwhelmed by the condition of my house, the diet, the workout, my daughters school project, my special needs sons current math struggles and the fact that I've been driving all over Texas for the past 4 days.  I'm damn hungry and not for a salad.  I'm crampy and cranky and I want to be left alone for a day or two to recharge and get rid of this fucking headache.  The dishes stink, I'm up to my ears in dirty laundry, I've had 4 cancellations in the last 2 days and this was supposed to be a killer profitable week.  Where's my Genie? 

And the reason that I say I'm considering hypnosis is because I want to like cleaning my house.  I want to like working out.  I want to like eating clean.  I like none of those things.  I'm tired of falling into the same failing patterns and I want for the changes I make to finally stick.  I want to do something long enough to see the long term effects it will have on my life and the lives of those I love and I want to do it without the limitations of my own mind and circumstance. 

Ok, I'm done feeling sorry for myself.  I'm gonna take an ibuprofen, go back to bed for a little while and wake up and have this day.